Born  and raised in Boston, MA in the mid-70's, I'm surprised I didn't experience any racism until I became an adult.  Life for me wasn't too bad growing up, my mother tried very hard to keep me and my three older sisters occupied and entertained  daily.  Summer vacations we were either at camp or in the house during the week, we didn't really get to play with the neighborhood kids until there was a party.  Then there was the family picnics to an amusement park one sponsored my mother's job and the other paid for by my mother.  When I was eight my mother moved the family from a three bedroom apartment to a five bedroom single family house that she purchased and didn't waste anytime enclosing the nice wide open country style front porch.  My mother is a great source of inspiration for me as tough as she was on me growing up and even today.  My father didn't play a major role in my upbringing, but he was around and really made his time with his girls count. Being that my parents come from the island of Saint Lucia I was exposed to a colorful culture of food, music and pure island beauty.  I didn't get to travel to Saint Lucia until I was Seventeen and only for one week during summer vacation.  My father said he wasn't sure if his American children would enjoy themselves, boy was my sister Ruthann and I disappointed unlike my sister Lucia who is afraid of the smallest insect.  I might have stayed if I didn't have to return and finish my senior year in high school. 

I enjoy cooking, free writing, watching movies/some t.v./netflix, playing games (video,board,card), listening to music, painting,drawing, doing any of those things I just mentioned with my children and spending time with family and close friends.  Another thing I enjoy is opening a bottle of wine, pouring a glass and sipping as I dance in the dark to one of my favorite playlist on spotify.  There's nothing like a bottle of wine and your favorite tunes to end a long week.  Most of the activities I participate in are home-based except for the few seasonal family-friendly occasions; it's not easy finding a babysitter for four children and being unemployed every penny counts; and it cost to go out.  I think all of my friends would say that I'm fun to be around because I'm always making them laugh.  I wish it was that easy for me to make myself laugh without the help of media, but then again people would probably say there is something wrong with me.  My close friends would probably say that I'm not the same person I used to be and that I need to snap out of it, but that's because as much as they love me they don't understand my depression and what I'm going through.  This is why for the time being I have decided to be semi-antisocial.  I really don't feel like constantly explaining myself.  My male friends would say that I'm the coolest female they know because of the way I view love and relationships; and for that same reason some of my female friends would say that I'm crazy.  So here I am it's just me trying to keep it plain and simple.

I follow my dreams  no matter what

I look up to the sky

for answers that will not come.

Only my creator knows.

Life is a mystery with many solutions,

lifting us and dropping us,

opening us and closing us,

why so tough?

Melting our drive

yielding no shoulders

diminishing our creativity

really?

Enough is enough

all I want is silence now.

Maybe time for talking is done.

Shattering of my aspirations has expired.

Now I move onto better things.

Optimism.

Motivation.

All about me now.

Time to remember who's really in charge.

Take the tough, because it can't kill you.

Encouragement from within just

radiant in that cloud.

Wishing you had thought of it sooner,

happier now that you can say I found me.

At last success, because you did your best.

Too bad for those who didn't believe